As one year ends and another year begins, I am reminded of the opportunity of new beginnings. Merriam Webster’s dictionary defines beginning as “the point at which something starts.” Thus, meaning new beginnings could be defined as a new start. We may all be able to relate to the hustle and bustle of the new year and all the resolutions we have chosen for ourselves. Some could be heartfelt while others are merely challenges from others to keep up appearances. Either way, the good, bad, and the ugly can come to play.
New beginnings can be filled with excitement, new opportunities to get things right, or to do better. They can also be filled with contempt, anxiety, and stress. Was the resolution to go to the gym to help with your physical and mental health, or was it to impress someone? Was the resolution to keep your house spick and span all week long an attempt at perfection? Was the resolution to be a more well-rounded person, at the sake of your time with family and belief system the true goal? I know from experience that I had well-meaning thoughts, but most of my resolutions did not drive me to success, they drove me into the ground. I had a hard time with follow through because I was not realistic in what I was needing in my life at that moment. I was looking around me to see what others were doing and became overwhelmed and chose so many things to work on that by March or April, my resolutions had all but failed.
I felt defeated, I felt embarrassed, I felt wounded, and I felt less than. My anxiety had risen, my depression had deepened, my self-esteem had plummeted, and I felt contempt for myself. I was not focused on what or who I needed to be focused on. I was looking around versus being able to recognize the true purpose that was intended for me. My new beginnings had nothing to do with others, it had everything to do with me. I had to face what I was truly afraid of and work on myself. I had to go into the depths of myself and truly see who I was, where I had been, and where I was going. My new beginning couldn’t begin without it. I had to face hard truths, my fears and doubts, my mistakes, my anxieties and depression, and my self-esteem. I had to create resolutions one at a time that allowed me to grow into a healthy woman of God and a well-rounded woman.
Through counseling, prayer, and insight, I was able to get the help that I needed. At The Fountains Counseling Center, we are here to help bring focus to your new year so you can have the best new beginnings for your life. If you are looking for help, you may call or email for an appointment with one of our counselors.